i can't remember the last time i talked to my grandma
my grandma was admitted to the hospital a few days ago because she had a fall, and turns out there are a lot of complications following the fall. she's been receiving one treatment after another ever since, and i'm flying to see her today.
we don't have the best relationship, but we talk once in a while and she talks my ears off when we do. it sometimes becomes exasperating when it's no longer about life updates and more about her nagging me about my life choices. i used to think that i can never talk to my grandma because she'll never get me - i'm not her favorite grandchild, and i've made peace with the fact that i'll never be. not that it affects me in any major way, but still.
now that it might become literal, i'm scared. every time someone sends an update in the family group chat i hold my breath and hope it's not bad news. we're all hoping that she'll recover enough to go back to "normal", whatever that means, but the talk about things potentially getting worse has been brought up and now i'm just praying i won't be too late when i get to her.